25 November, Friday, 2011

Ah...Looks like the first week of the holidays are coming to an end. Time sure flies when you're having fun. Today, I prepared and cooked lunch for the first time in my life. Somehow, I really felt happy and satisfied. It's like the first step into a teenage life. As much as I am happy, I am also confused and said. Last night, Kokoro asked me to just leave her alone.. That sentence alone really pierced my heart.. I really don't know what to do right now... My power of imagination is fast fading and I don't know how to restore it... So I can't really use my imagination to comfort my heart... Although my brother is always whispering advices to me and trying to cheer me up... Oh,well... I just have to continue praying....T_T

12 November, Saturday, 2011

Finally the weekends, but I'm not feeling happy at all... All day I've been feeling like crying and just curling up into a ball and just forget everything for a while... I'm scared to go to school on Monday, because I'm not sure if Heart is still angry at me... We chatted for a while this morning, but it's obvious in her words that she is annoyed with me... she's been like this ever since yesterday, but I don't know why she's acting like this... Well, if I go on Monday, I plan to stay at school and not go for the visit to the radio station. But I don't feel like going to school at all... Problem is, if I don't go to school, there's a possibility that Heart will be angry at me... I can't really think properly right now... My head really hurts, and I have nobody to talk to... Now, I really feel alone... Like nobody can understand me... I really hate to argue and I wish and pray with all my heart that our friendship will continue until forever...